I Agree to who I am, and who I am not, what I know and what I do not know, and what is possible for me, and what is not. I am attuning to including it all. I agree to my birth, my life, fate, and the possible ways life came to me, to my parents, to my ancestors, and to my land.
Agreeing and Including what is in the here and now is becoming part of my process of walking, mirroring, and guiding. That requires that I am here in the now with and in my body, breath, and ability to feel.
My mind that learned to fly away from the pain of Being Here is slowly trusting to Re-turn, Gain Ground, and Be in the Intimacy of this moment.
I am learning to be in the relational experience of life in the here and now – with eyes open – not closed. That is the path I guide and share. In other words, my relationship with myself is what emerges in my relationship with you and the world.
I am learning to see and be with you without the loss of parts of me. For when I lose connection to parts of me, I lose connection to parts of you. So In those moments, I need to pause to make time and space to re-turn, re-pair, re-story my connection to those parts of me. Sometimes it may happen fairly quickly, and sometimes it may take longer. I am learning to allow myself this process of return, repair, and re-story, and also, speak it to you so you know – it is not about you. The more I am in spatial relationship with my inside, the more I am able to attune and embody this process with you. In other words, we are in this process together.
What we see is often only a part of the truth – some facts that are visible in the now. Truth is phenomenologically hidden in the Knowing. It will not be found in the known for What is known in the now is a movement that originated way back, with the beginning almost disappearing into the expansive horizon. When we stay open, we are able to feel and sense parts of this truth in the Knowing Field. When we agree and include these parts of the Truth in the here and now, there is a possibility of inhabiting and experiencing relational interpersonal Wholeness of connection and separation in the here and now.
Everything in this universe influences our existence in ways we cannot even comprehend, and we are not required to comprehend it to live it in our everyday ordinary life. In fact, the movement of Separation makes it possible to experience this interconnectedness in a way that is built into the path of Being an Emotionally Mature. In other words, Separation can be inhabited in our Adult Human Nervous System without loss of (Connection to) Wholeness.
In Humans this happens as a natural process when we are mirrored Attuned (connection to) Wholeness in co-regulation with our caregivers within our social nest at the beginning of our journey. In other words, conscious inhabitation of Co-Regulation, and Connection in Early childhood through Attuned Presence needs to precede Separation. In the absence of receiving this Empathetic Attune Co-regulation (as is the case for almost everyone raised within a civilized society away from nature and whole communities), Separation is often felt and experienced as a painful process of loss of connection. This is the Trauma Mine alive in most modern human bodies.
Stay Open. Look around. Seek it.
I am born with the ability to respond to life. The Ability to Respond is built into my body, not into my mind. As I am learning to wean off my protective ego-personality created in and by my mind, I am re-locating the organic movement of my body to respond spontaneously in the here and now through my eyes, voice, hands, legs, and my entire being, and when I am unable to I know whom to ask for support.
Life is emerging as an infinite web of possibilities, and I am open and here to choose it.
This rhythm informs our cellular biology. It navigates our nervous system through the Sympathetic and Parasympathetic responses of the Autonomous Nervous System. It informs our rest – activity cycle, sleep – wake cycle, and even need for authenticity (autonomy), and attachment (connection) cycle. Every life on Earth is birthed in and through this rhythm. It breathes life into existence. It informs movement on earth. In the human body-being, we have the ability to consciously witness this Dance of Polarities (the Known Objective Reality or Shakti) as constituting the periphery or circumference of our lives and find our way towards the center of Knowing (Shiva) – again and again, and again. This knowledge informs the spirituality of my ancestors and my land, and it informs my life on Earth in learning to surrender to the Rhythm. I am a Wisdom Keeper of this Rhythm.
My Birthland, and MotherLand
for the gift of Indigenous Earth Spirituality, and the Vedas
My Parents & Sister
for the gift of Life, Love, & Longing
“The only choice we have as we mature is how we inhabit our
vulnerability, how we become larger and more courageous and more compassionate through our intimacy with disappearance, our choice is to inhabit vulnerability as generous citizens of loss, robustly and fully, or conversely, as misers and complainers, reluctant and fearful, always at the gates of existence, but never bravely and completely attempting to enter, never wanting to risk ourselves, never walking fully through the door.”
– David Whyte
(Consolations: The Solace, Nourishment and Underlying Meaning of Everyday Words)